Find your own direction.

The harsh winter pales in comparison to the cold shoulder you're giving me
You're so close.
But yet so far away.
For someone so sweet and the pain you're inflicting on me,
I don't know how to feel anymore.
Seeing you weekly
is like lifting my veil.
My veil of pervading pain.
Disappears.
I was happy.
But. Realisation hit hard.
I was violently jerked back into reality.
I realised that what i'd been fighting for.
Wasn't what could belong solely to me.
You were what I lived for
for those few days of immense short-lived joy.
You gave me a reason to live,
and tagged meaning to my mundane life.
You shot across my pitch black like a metaphor.
And all of a sudden,
i was blinded by your dazzling white light.
Blinded to my peril.
Sucked into my very own personal hell.
And bought my one-way ticket to eternal damnation.
Sorrow and happiness lived side by side.
Without knowing the exuberant inexplanable joy,
of knowing such an awesome guy like you.
I would never have shed rentless torrents of tears over you.
Those sleepless night.
Coupled with bittersweet love.
Memories of you and i,
are all a vestige of what we could have been.
You're killing me.
Breaking me down. Tearing me up.
You're like a drug i can't live without.
It hurts so much to know that we can't be.
I know i've got to forget you.
But you're still lingering at the boundaries of my heart.
My once warm heart.
You're still beautiful to me.
Your heartbreakingly large eyes.
Your perfectly sculpted cheeckbones.
Your sensual lips.
Your awesomely flat stomach.
The way you look in your black nerd-like specs.
How you make jokes so easily.
Are all recollections ought to be expunged by the fiercest of flames,
banished to the depthless ocean
filled with secrets of many women
of their forbidden fruit.
The taste of love.
I'm still waiting for my rocket to come.
For that shooting star to wish upon.
For me to wish that i can go back.
Back where we belong.


i don't know if you're reading this somewhere
but if you are, i've really always wanted to tell you that
since the very first time i saw you
i've really fallen hard
you're toxic i'm slipping under

Love,
Gracia

Love aint just a chemical; but a painkiller for many.
Its a drug. Once youre hooked. Game over. Deceptively sweet. Like a succumbus beckoning lustful man. To their very own personal hell. Her words are like honey. Her embrace is alluring. Her beguiling smile. It doesnt touch her eyes. Those frosted black diamonds glint dangerously, signalling impending doom. But drowned in lewdness, the foolish man goes to her. And lays with her. After the sordid affair. What then, may i ask, is left? After falling into her abyss? Neither love nor life. But a broken heart. -peaced. --------.----------- When we were growing up you always Looked like you were having such fun You always were and you always Will be the taller and the prettier one People seem to love you They gravitate towards you That's why I started to hate you so much And I just completely ignored you I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for oh, so long It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years All the pain I've caused you, the constant flow of all the tears Believe me when I say that I cannot apologize enough When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love And if it's not too late could you please find it deep within your heart To try and go back, go back to the start? Go back to the start I've been so evil with my constant invasions But you made it so easy for me, you always rise to the occasion I'll always pull you up on every stupid thing that you say But I found it so entertaining, messing around with your head I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for oh so long It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years All the pain I've caused you, the constant flow of all the tears Believe me when I say that I cannot apologize enough When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love And if it's not too late could you please find it deep within your heart To try and go back, go back to the start? Go back to the start, go back to the start, go back to the start This is not just a song, I intend to put these words into action I hope that it sums up the way that I feel to your satisfaction I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for oh so long It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years All the pain I've caused you, the constant flow of all the tears Believe me when I say that I cannot apologize enough When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love And if it's not too late could you please find it deep within your heart To try and go back, go back to the start? Go back to the start -Go back to the start ; Lily Allen ---------------.----------------- Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing Especially when I have to watch other people kissin' And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt Dreams, Dreams Of when we had just started things Dreams of you and me It seems, It seems That I can't shake those memories I wonder if you have the same dreams too. The littlest things that take me there I know it sounds lame but its so true I know its not right, but it seems unfair That the things are reminding me of you Sometimes I wish we could just pretend Even if only for one weekend So come on, Tell me Is this the end? Drinkin' tea in bed Watching DVD's When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers As if we ever needed anything to entertain us the first time that you introduced me to your friends and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand when I was feeling down, you made that face you do There's no one in the world that could replace you Dreams, Dreams Of when we had just started things Dreams of me and you It seems, It seems That I can't shake those memories I wonder if you feel the same way too The littlest things that take me there I know it sounds lame but its so true I know its not right, but it seems unfair That the things reminding me of you Sometimes I wish we could just pretend Even if only for one weekend So come on, Tell me Is this the end? -Littlest things ; Lily Allen ------------.-------------- In a mad world, only the mad are sane. The world is atropying at an alarming rate. Deveils debauch innocent angels. For yet another baby born. Another perishes. Nothing lasts forever. Not even that sought after one true love. For love is just a chemical. No matter the reaction. It is only mere faith that drives us to blindly love. The arcanum of the odessey of love. Shall linger at the bounderies of this cold heart. Seemingly nonchalent. Pulsating with love's delirium. -peaced.